I think not being involved kills relationships. Whenever you find yourself not including somebody your supposed to care about it kills it. Fellows I’m not saying Follow your Women around and never give her space. lol Same thing to you Women please don’t start stalking your man and hiding in the bushes at his friends house waiting to see if he is going to show up there like he said.lol Seriously not being involved isn’t good. If you don’t have any idea where he/she is then you got a problem. If you find yourself making big changes in your life and that person doesn’t know you got problems. You got to be more Involved. Especially when you have trust in the person. It can be difficult.
Going back to school. Havent been in years. Going to be taken some courses to assist my new career. Not sure if I can get back to the school life. The sitting in class, the studying, the Homework, and trying to take a big Exam. The fact that there is so many things id rather do in life. but I will benefit I tell myself. I will profit. I dont know if it was the past pressure from going to school or is it because im being lazy. Feels like a mixture of both. Lol Im hoing to fo this. They say if your going back you should be fully dedicated to school to want to finish it. Otherwise you will fail. Well im going to test that theory. Im not dedicated to school but im dedicayed to the results of school. I believe in the job not the way of getting it. So we will see what prevails. I will update everyone on my school adventures as they go. Right now im looking for the right facility.
So I admit the one thing that makes me envious abour people is time spent. I look at a lot of people an wonder why can’t I have the time to spend it with the people I care about or the friends I want to hang with. When I have the time no one can spare it. And when they have the time I can’t. Sickens me. Im working and never see the the time like everyone else. I usually have a few sporadic moments when I an have fun. I never get mad at the people who can’t spend time with me because they are busy. Cant get mad at someone for having a life . I mean we do all get busy right? But I do get mad at the situation. A situation that I work to fix. That is the only gift I is time. I ask for time. you don’t have to get me anything just allow me time. But spending time is mportant to me. I grew up watching those movies where the Dad is always working. And always felt bad for the kid. Like “Why can’t you spend time with your kid? you can’t just stop working for once to show your kid that you care?” But I think I turned into that Dad. I’m not a father but try to get my metaphor here. I want to stop working and and be there more for my friends. I don’t have complaints but I feel like I am. That is enough.
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So I been thinking about eating more healthy and losing weight. I have been trying a lot of things but I seem to go back to my original way of doing things. I have been trying to figure out why. I may have figured it out. The problem is we “try”, “demo” goals we want to accomplish to see if it can fit our lifestyle. What we have to come to term with is if there is something we want to change that is a complete major disapproval to our own lifestyles, then the lifestyle we choose for ourselves was complete crap. We Screwed up in the beginning and now we need to make it right. The only way we can ever change what ourselves is to completely do away with our entire lifestyle. Create a new better lifestyle. Now for an example I want to lose weight and eat healthy. well I decided that the way for me to eat healthy would be for me to be a vegetarian. Now I tried this before to see if it would fit my lifestyle. couple of days later i’m back to eating meat. I realized that I was testing it out. That was my mistake. If you want to be a vegetarian be one. Call yourself one. If you want to do that you need to Identify yourself as a vegetarian. Be one don’t just say your going to attempt and work it in. Because if it wasn’t there to start with it shouldn’t be there now. So get rid of your old way of doing things and embrace and change into the new way. The funny thing is that I tell you this but I still need to figure out when I’m going to say that I am a vegetarian. Yeah its hard to change our ways but if WE are going to do it, then WE need to do it.
Thats a almost crazy thing to say and mean every bit of it. ” I understand gods plan for me.” its weird actually. I always tell people and mean it when I say “I dont have fears. I cant die yet I have things to do.” I feel as if he came down and told me himself. Almost like a promise. So I dont worry or have natural fears. The only thing i worry about is failing. And I have done that so many times in life already that Failing has become just another easy obstavle to overcome. Why do I have such confidence in this? It would the hundreds of times I could of kicked the bucket. Living life a bit dangerous sometimes. And as of recently the lady im involved with now. She makes me realize that we both have alot more life to live together. I still try to tell her to lookout more. She is a tough one but im still not cool with her outta my sight sometime. Lolj/k im not that bad. I just want her safe. But I dont I dont stress out either about it. Cause that feeling I have juat wouldnt make since if I didnt already believe she was safe. Besides I think the plan is with her. I was thinkingbabout all the jobs I had. I was reluctant to have them. They all lead me to a certain path. It makes sense now. Trust me when i say you will know this feeling once it occurs.
Never start anything you havent prepared for. Something i want to do when i get back home. But I always felt you should never do anything your not prepared for. If you dont have the right equipment for the job wait till you do have it or getbup and get it. I finally have my all my equipment ready on my big project. Happy.