So they say the biggest amount of affection towards someone is trust. I used to think I was easy to trust because I had the great ability to look at someone for a couple of seconds and tell their full intentions. Honestly I still have that blessed ability. But lately things are harder to tell. I always put myself in someones elses shoes and figured out what they were here for. I know whats wrong. Ill get my stuff back in time. But anyone can do this if you can put out your mind your own faults. If you can decipher intention you can learn how much trust you can give someone.
Have you ever believed that you care for someone? You ever tell yourself you would do anything for that person? Would you really? I think lot of times you have people in situations with others in which they see a person that they claim to care for doing something harmful to them. We don’t say anything. Why? I thought you cared? We would rather not upset the person you care about than help them. Crazy right? If that person gets upset because you give a damn then “So what”. The worst thing that could happen is you sit there knowing you should have made an attempt and did nothing. Help the one you care about. People can easily say these things to the Next man but can find it so difficult to say these things to the one you care about. Its amazing how people can care so highly of the Next man and so less of the one they care most for. Im not saying to stop caring for people you don’t know. But what I am saying is to learn to care more for the ones you claim you do care for. Get off your butt and make the attempt. If it doesn’t work out then you tried. Don’t make a big deal about it. At The end of the day its up to that person to change their ways. If they don’t then “Oh Well!!”
Hey she is back got arrested cause she stupid.
I recently lost my grandmother. It was very difficult of course. I was able to spend some of the last days with her. So the coming passing was not much of a surprise to me. But I realized something. I lost my grandfather a couple years back. When I lost him I wasn’t able to spend some of the last days with him. I always felt bad about that. I always wondered if I had done right by him? I wondered if I was living my life to meet his standards? I believe I still do wonder. That particular feeling will never go away. I wonder also if they are both watching me? If they are watching my future like a film. or if they were right beside me the whole time. A lot of choices I have made have been because I wonder if and what they would say. They were nice people. Some of the things I do I’m like “he (grandpa) will be okay with it.” Then I laugh say to myself “But Grandma would beat my ass.” But during the funerals I felt bad for not being able to be with my Grandpa on those days. I have to wonder or try and remember those last few words I said to him. It wasn’t bad I’m sure. but It was the last words. The last words seem to the most important. I am not sure I told him ” Thank you”; “I love you, and “etc.” That’s the hardest part. Telling someone how they made you feel on this Earth is what seemed the most important. It wasn’t the fact that they were gone. I understand death is natural. Not being able to let someone know or simply make peace with them can be hard on you. Of course you miss them but you must know your loved ones wouldn’t want you remembering them in sorrow but in happiness. They would want you to reminisce on the lessons and experiences learned with them. Those experiences you learned is what the expect you to show in your future. It took me a while to understand that. I still think im being watched. lol but I no longer worry about the last words. And you never know if they are watching you they may have already received those last words.
I have suddenly have one of those situations were you have to make a decision as a family. The decision that is gonna piss somebody off whether we wanted to do it or not. Well you see my grandmother has gotten to the point in which she can not take care of herself anymore. And she lives with another person in the family that is a nurse(DA). She is the best option out the family. So taking care of my grandmother has become a huge chore for her. She is doing a great job. She also has a nurse that sits with her during the day to have someone here the whole time to watch her. So she is being well taken care of. but my issues that we as a family see is that DA is getting very old herself. and watching and taking care of my grandmother seems to be too much for her nowadays. We assist when we can but the family living so spreadout in the country makes it hard to do as much as we can. The strain of lifting and moving my grandmother seems to be one of the biggest issues. but all the other issues do come into play. But I wonder would this be better in a nursing facility. My family is deciding. I agree with this. but I wonder if DA does. If you were DA would you fel like you have given up? Would you feel that it is necessary? I havent heard from her. I always wonder is the necessary thing to do always worth it. I hear about and read about people whom sacrifice so much on “necessary” situations. I also question you to think about the necessary? What are you willing to change or do if you feel its necessary? Those decision from what I experienced and seen usually cost us somewhere down the line. and for some reason it always seems to be a bad consequence. well not all but most seem.