Going back to school. Havent been in years. Going to be taken some courses to assist my new career. Not sure if I can get back to the school life. The sitting in class, the studying, the Homework, and trying to take a big Exam. The fact that there is so many things id rather do in life. but I will benefit I tell myself. I will profit. I dont know if it was the past pressure from going to school or is it because im being lazy. Feels like a mixture of both. Lol Im hoing to fo this. They say if your going back you should be fully dedicated to school to want to finish it. Otherwise you will fail. Well im going to test that theory. Im not dedicated to school but im dedicayed to the results of school. I believe in the job not the way of getting it. So we will see what prevails. I will update everyone on my school adventures as they go. Right now im looking for the right facility.
So I admit the one thing that makes me envious abour people is time spent. I look at a lot of people an wonder why can’t I have the time to spend it with the people I care about or the friends I want to hang with. When I have the time no one can spare it. And when they have the time I can’t. Sickens me. Im working and never see the the time like everyone else. I usually have a few sporadic moments when I an have fun. I never get mad at the people who can’t spend time with me because they are busy. Cant get mad at someone for having a life . I mean we do all get busy right? But I do get mad at the situation. A situation that I work to fix. That is the only gift I is time. I ask for time. you don’t have to get me anything just allow me time. But spending time is mportant to me. I grew up watching those movies where the Dad is always working. And always felt bad for the kid. Like “Why can’t you spend time with your kid? you can’t just stop working for once to show your kid that you care?” But I think I turned into that Dad. I’m not a father but try to get my metaphor here. I want to stop working and and be there more for my friends. I don’t have complaints but I feel like I am. That is enough.